Abandoner

I am an Abondener, did you not understand?
When you knew, your every little excuse and behaviour
Makes me walk away
And when you act opposite to you my saviour
Every bullshit, you will say
I am not your joker in your Marching Band -undertsand!

Your only responsibility was to be with me
With making me promise not to abandon you
With no promises of your own
Tell me, tell me about you what was true?
Except useless efforts; you having no dog, but keeping a bone
You can’t think of en caging me when you yourself wanna stay free -en caging me!

Tell yourself, tell me too I am always wrong
So you claimed I am your life
So you claimed I am yours
Why would you cut my heart out with knife?
I am not one of your man whores
All I did was make you this strong – always wrong

All I asked you is to save me from me
Don’t ever let me be the Abandoner I am
But you were too wrapped up in your own crap
Set me up I can hear all the doors on you I slam
Slowly disappearing erasing your existence’s map
You smiled and kept letting me flee -from you from me!

 

 

Riddens

Show me your weaknesses 

And I will loathe you forever

Act petty and I will walk away

like I never exist

You are this easy riddens

Your  weak existence is no match 

for my Higher culture and high society 

upbringing as a the only daughter 

I only like strong men partners 

Not imbecels or pests

The Egoes Have Landed

The Unreacheable was not so unreachable after all
We both built the ships with so much gas
That it was easily inflatable
Fueling it the best way we could
With no self esteems
We found our moons seaparately
Of our own Worlds
Throwing out our existences from each others orbits
We landed on our moons
Now with so much emptiness and aloofness we announce
The Egos have landed

Gave Up Too Soon 

I Gave Up Too Soon

I gave Up Too Soon 

your love your care 

like a little brat in my pampered life 

I gave Up Too Soon

your sincerity on worshipping me 

had no meaning without  the paper 

that says matrimony to show the world 

so I gave up Too Soon 

because I rather be with my monsters 

than your love or your selfless efforts

so I gave up Too Soon

because you are really nothing 

your uselessness that I showed you

your emptiness your shallowness

how else could I have broken you

how else could I have ever pushed you out of my universe

so I gave up on you

because I know you will survive 

like all other knives you have in you

so I gave up on you

To be able to walk all over you 

And once I collected all my strength 

while my family came together 

I shot off my mouth like a canon

blasted you completely and calling you names

but you already knew all that

what i was going to do

and you just let me

so i gave up on you 

because you let me 

but now I wonder 

why you let me

And my ego is too big to come back 

To you and let you love me

so I  gave up on you

Don’t Care What I lose

Don’t Care What I lose

Yes, my ego gets the best of me and the worst
So I don’t care what I lose or gain
Cos then I can lean on my self loathing
Quench my insecurites’s thirst

Yea, It’s my ego i nurture most
So I don’t care what I lose or gain
Cos then I can hide behind blaming you
Throw shit all over you – Be a good Host

Ahuh, ego is all I am
So I don’t care what I lose or gain
I never appreciate anything
Nothing of  value I see – I don’t give a damn