​”You are never going to b unfucked”

You love and you get deceit

You spend time and you get title of useless

You pour yourself again and agian to fill you and you are told you are empty 

Not in words never… but here and there quiet unspoken gesture few triggers 

So you don’t catch you

You go to the depths of your demons to pull you out of them to be only called a monster

Then when you stop, everything stops for you

It’s not you it’s me 

You can hear your own echoes of laughters 

You are alone all alone with everyone 

And you have always been alone struggling with your beingness

You can use you as an alternative

Alternative … what

You love me as an alternative

You deserve alternative too

Love is a crime for which I’ve been paying dearly since I was born



I am still alive why?

Your Way 

Your way is your way

My way should be your way 

You say by gestures 

You say with tones in not so 

Subtle words

Put up with me 

Let me be

The cost of which is 



To let you be 

Is to Un do myself

So I did and I became you

And i am for granted

I am to be there just to watch 

And observe and not to say a word 

So i wont and i am not allowed to leave

So you say you allow 

But I am the prisoner 

In my own mind of your 


Unchain me I say


I cant be me 

If i only exist 

your way

My Worth 

My Worth

I am this way

Don’t ask me to change

Don’t tell me what to do

I live the way I want to

I’ll form the shape I choose to

Don’t tell me what to do

I command my feelings 

To say I love you whenever I want

Not you

Not anyone

No matter where my life takes me

Self loathing disgust perishing in my own regress

Don’t tell me 

I will live as I please

Or not

This is who I am 

so do not try to change me

And I wondered 

When did I ever say or do that

But then you can’t command me either

You can’t expect me to be otherwise 

What you aren’t either 

You can’t expect from me 

what you don’t others to expect from you

You can’t feel the pain 

When you want and thrash 

Others when you want and expect them 

to understand this is who you are 

What if I am you but 1000000 times more

Yes that’s my worth…