The Light

The Light 

Every day I wake up not knowing what I will do. Not just whole day or next hour or in the morning. A STRUGGLE that has totally occupied me and made me aware of my senseless living. It’s how it is. Everyday. What will I. do today and the mind is as empty as the brightest star’s light. Then when I finally have this black dot of doing something in this brightest light of nothingness, immediately confusion sets in, eyes go inside, becoming unfocussed, pointlessness sets in ringing in ears makes confusion even more. I find myself staring at things and then thoughts just merging with the brightest light of this nothingness mixing light and that fuzzy dot that wants me to do something productive today. I EXIST…daily in that brightest light of nothingness. YES all of you can percieve me as that energy. YOU can’t come closer to the sun without disintegrating …be ready to burn melt and vanish … That’s what the light makes me think of myself.


The Person I am

The Person I am

So you think you know me 

From unreachable distances

I cast my persona 

All knowing and all encompassing 

So you think you know me

Till you bring down and up the depths and heights of your courageous self

Then a bigbang

This … this you thought of god like 

This the coward pest of a man

This is my biggest mistake 

So… I dont wonder anymore 

Not even with you 

I am that pest

A buzzing annoying mosquito 

People just wanna squish 

Come closer fomd the demons 

Or the demon you alwqys safeguraded yourself from

Like a fly in the web you are stuck 

The man I will never be

The person I am

Is the nightmare you can never wake up from

You are drawn to everything about me that is wrong

I dont have to do anything

This is the person I am

Everyones biggest mistake



There is no one for your monsters

No one 

No one for making sure there arent any

They cant see

They wont care

They don’t

Who has time for mental fuckers

One look and they can tell

Your depth of insanity

It’s all good I tell you

Soon enough 

This despicable existence will be gone

You wont feel a thing

You wont 

You can’t

You don’t

Do whatever you are doing 

Just dont show me your monsters