Yell

Yell

I want to yell

loudly as i can

The sound waves must travel 

In infiniteness of time

So every generation can hear my outcry

My brain itches badly

To scream 

Shout! Shout! Shout now!

For heavens sakes

But these eyes can hear can only long for such  love of my voice 

No courage …

Not even remote desire in my ever analyzing mind to just go ahead and do it already 

So i sit frozen on my sofa

Agitated irritated and anxious

I need to grow balls 

Just one pair of it

Oh i forgot i am a woman

So even hypthetically would suffice 

But what can i do in my pleasong selfish nature of happy unhappy modes

I know

Yell!!!!!!

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Dignity

Dignity

Honour, pride, esteem, dignity,
By the time you’d opened your eyes little child,
The only thing you would remember – self-preservation

The first four letters are torn out of your memory
By your own loved ones
By the time you could start speaking

Economics of love is self gratification at its best
The supply of others sacrifices and violations should always
Outweigh your own

Animal…yes you my child,

Don’t let your family brain wash you into
Don’t lie, be honest, talk straight, be nice and kind to others
love, care for others and love God and life after death crap

You already know self preservation
What they are saying is to cover your self preservation
With these elaborate hocus pocus

Yeah man be in style when you fuck others that’s all

If you can remain focus on this very fact
Not a blink unfocused
You will be all right

That’s how one gets Dignified here

 

The Claimants

The Claimants

Good for 

Youvcan cover your dark soul

With this skin

Human!

No matter who you are

Where you are born 

You are the claimant of Supereme Being 

By dominance 

You are the claimant of existence of God(s)

Then annihilated the races of species calling them auch names a vicious savages etc…

Good work mankind!

UNForgiveABLE 

UNForgiveABLE

“Thank you 

With all my sarcasm

Bitterness anger and hatered

I hate men

For not once i beleived in you

So i reluctantly followed your ways

I allowed myself to love you

One two three as many contenders uncoumtable

I shut the doors on them..just

To believe in you

I wrote poems for you

I wrote letters to you

But never ever i beleived 

So i did what anyone does

I kept my old ways on 

just never told you…hidden

To protect myself…

But slowly transcending

In trying to believing in you

I did everything 

That you recommended 

I believe i gave my self 

In every which way i could

But…

Its never enough

I felt unworthy

I felt I can 

never reach

your expectations

And you make me feel

 Always let you down

I cant keep up 

With your nondemanding demands

It was never enough 

Never for you

I hate you 

I hide from you

 i don’t want to

But i dont want to 

go through 

your probing questions

I am not on trial damn it

I hate myself 

For i knew you are my biggest mistake

I am back in my cyber world

I always run there 

To relieve my self 

Where only me and my monsters live the way i dictate 

Me my hands my body my mouth my way my time

Real people you all are outrageous 

I will never forgive you

For what i did to myself 

I hate you for knowing that

I am always right about you

Sons of bitches

I exposed myself to you 

Everywhich way possible

Its not enough 

It will never be 

Yes you are the worst unfuckable of all

Your hunger is un fed able 

Your thirst is in satiable

Ok umm

Fuck you

You really don’t care”
In the beginning I told you that

I am the master villain … above all

I am The Saturn facing your constellation in the moon…The Shani .. The Destroyer

Fade fade more slowly then rapidly then gone…

I am indeed that monster…i will always reside in your mind…forever n ever

NEVER GONNA BE UNFUCKED, NEVER REALLY CARED, Biggest mistake

Never Gonna be Unfucked, Never Really Cared
Break my heart, how,

Which piece out of trillions i have of my one broken heart?

This is timeless punsihment

For being me

You are not alone

You are not to blame

I am not alone either

I have all you mother fuckers’ memories 

Family friends lovers colleagues partners  

Who took one piece at a time 

In the name of …. all being Unintentional, 

Yeah Right…

So then how am i the biggest mistake

How will i ever be never unfucked 

I never really cared ….because time is so cheap that i can forget about myself for everyone i never really cared for

So

the new claimer of my love … 

You wrote me off as “i really don’t care”

Whatever rows your boat

So I ask again which one trillionth of the piece of my heart cam you ever break

Let me tell you

None you can’t break a broken heart

Or unfuck a fucked

That definitely makes me a biggest mistake 

Aint it

You are always right!